So today is going to be a easy day. I did however, write my dad a pretty personal letter today for Father's Day. I didnt buy a card so I decided that something from the heart would be better. I am glad that I did it but it does make me nervous. We dont exactly have a good relationship and I am trying to get closer to him before time runs out. I do hope that he knows that he is loved. I am down to 117.6 today and that makes me happy but not happy enough. It totally makes me motivated and I will have to stay on track to get myself down (110) final goal. I think that if I can loose the 7 pounds I will feel fantastic and really will be in the best shape ever! I did have something really weird happen to me the other day at the wedding that I attended. It was SO hot and we were eating hot food. I had some collard greens and bulgar wheat with roasted veggies with some BBQ satan. I was wiping my face off with my napkin during dinner because it was so freaking hot and I was litterally dripping with sweat. I went to the bathroom and when I came back to the table the girl that was sitting next to me was like "Oh, Heather you have some collards on your face." I was so embarrassed and because she said it loud enough and then she said "It wasnt there before you went to the bathroom." I had my napkin in my hand and said "Well, I guess I shouldnt be wiping my face with the same napkin that I am wiping my mouth with." and just laughed. She was alluding to me throwing up in the bathroom though. I handled myslef really well and knew not to over react because that would make people think that I really had done that. Instead I just brushed it off like i didnt care. But I do care. I couldnt believe that she said that infront of people. I would just die if I thought that people thought that how I lost my weight was because I turn bulemic. I have lost about 18 pounds within the last few months and it is because I have worked my ass off. I guess it bothers me so much because years ago I was bulemic and struggled with it for years. I DONT do that anymore and truley have been working out like two times a day and eating super healthy. Oh well you cant please everybody I guess but Athens is small and if she said something like that to someone it would spread like wild fire. I have to keep positive though.On another note my teeth hurt....I found a cavity. and my front tooth feels kinda weird today. Like the nerve is damaged or something. I hope the damn thing doesnt fall out!!! It wont but I should bring my tooth brush with me and brush 3 times a day.
The boy thing is not any better. I get phone calls still from Pete and he doesnt even talk about "us". He just rambles about what is going on that day for him. I wish that he would just stop. I should just not answer his phone calls. Next week is the last time that I think that my band will play for a while. My friend that is in the band gets on my damn nerves SO fucking bad that I just cant take it anymore. I am thinking that I am going to just have to kick her out. I can practice at my house for god sake and really dont need her flute abilities. As for Paul, I dont want to spend the night on Friday (we are going out to dinner and then a drink and then to his house.) I want to get up early and go to the farmers market so that I can get some REAL tomatoes. That would involve me waking up at 8:00 and getting there 30 minutes before they open (9:30). It would just be nice to have my coffee and at least dont look hung over. I am just going to tell him that tonight. I hope he doesnt get mad. If he does I am just going to tell him that he is putting too much pressure on me and that I dont think that we should see each other anymore. I really love the boy but there are somethings that REALLY get to me and I am going to be pretty picky this time around. Well that's pretty much that for me today. I ho pe to just get through this week and next week and then it will be 9 days off for me!
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