So I do FINALLY have good news to report this Monday morning. I did get through Athfest without loosing my mind and I have got to tell you, I am sooooo happy that it is all over. I told the band that I will not be doing any music at very least for a month. I dont feel like having to stress about a show and practicing right now. I also got to talk with Pete finally last night. It went really well too! I set him free yesterday and he was ok with it. So now (well yesterday) starts the begining of Heather time and what better way to start than a vacation! I leave on Saturday and will be back Wed. So no TDP and no worries about eating/drinking. I cant posssible gain that much in a 3 day span and I know that I will be having some much needed runs on the beach, best of all though, I get to see Barbara! It is going to be sooooo much freaking fun! I cant wait. I am going to enjoy the salt water air and just relax. So what do I plan to do with all this time to myself? Well I will tell you. I plan to watch a lot of movies and buy a really good book and write some new music and cook really healthy meals and most of all talk to myself out loud. Just be ok with being alone for the first time in my life and I couldnt be more excited about it. I am going to get off this medication and really take this time to just be me and find out who the hell I really am and what I really like to do. You dont know me but I can tell you that I am addicted to people and truthfully never alone except for the hour or two before bed. I just get home from work or gym and immediately go out to do something. That stops today and I know that I will be saving a ton of money and loose a little bit of weight because I wont be at the bars. I may go to a happy hour every once in a while but as far as going out and partying all the time and being always in a crowd of people. Nope, no more for me! I am commiting to not doing it until August anyway. I will not date anyone (unless that guy from the gym asks me out but he never will. lol). I really mean it too. I am free and I am going to bask in it. I will have 9 days off starting on Saturday!!!! 4 days at the beach and then will have 5 days to do the master cleanse and clear my head even more. This will be the best therapy yet!
-Heather
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